Thursday, March 15, 2007
Why?
I started sleeping briefly in the office hours for the past three or four months. I thought it was due to the lack of sleep due to the construction work of my house. But right now I sleep about 6 to 7 hours a day, still finding my self sleeping in the office hours. During my college days I used to sleep only in the bus while traveling to the college as I was occupied busy with lots of work related to my project. I still do not remember sleeping in the college or in the lab where I do my project where I spent about 17 hours every day for about 6 long months.
Why? This was the question I was asking my self when a friend of mine said "Get up man" when I was sleeping in the office. I tried to ask array of questions to me, and I wasn't surprised by the answers I got from me. I have been in this company for now about 20 months of which I have been working in night for about 80% of the time. I hardly go to sleep when I was in the previous project, though I was working more than office hours. I used to sleep less than 5 hours a day back then but still I really do not remember getting tired. SO it's not the time zone that I am working is responsible for what is happening. Then?
My friend in the previous project used to sleep in the office, but he does not even occasionally sleep in office now a days even though he is been working continuously for more than 15 hours. So what has been the change in my life, that has made me of not what I am. At about 7 am today morning after a rapid fire session of question, I
think I got an answer.
I do not know whether it is the right answer to the question or the answer I wanted it to be, still there was a kind of relief in my mind which I felt was new in recent times. So what was that made me happy today?
"I was trying hard to like what I got rather than trying hard to get what I liked."
My friend started enjoying what he was doing today rather than what he was doing earlier or he has found what he thought he was looking for all along his life. That is what I have been missing recently, I have stopped enjoying what I am doing and started seeing the clock for the last period to end. Of course there might be more than one solution for it.
1] I need to try hard and like what I got
2] I should try harder to get what I like.
Thought I have the choices before me, I haven't mad my choice yet. If you could see the choices carefully you should now have noticed what might be the likely answer I will be choosing.
Why? This was the question I was asking my self when a friend of mine said "Get up man" when I was sleeping in the office. I tried to ask array of questions to me, and I wasn't surprised by the answers I got from me. I have been in this company for now about 20 months of which I have been working in night for about 80% of the time. I hardly go to sleep when I was in the previous project, though I was working more than office hours. I used to sleep less than 5 hours a day back then but still I really do not remember getting tired. SO it's not the time zone that I am working is responsible for what is happening. Then?
My friend in the previous project used to sleep in the office, but he does not even occasionally sleep in office now a days even though he is been working continuously for more than 15 hours. So what has been the change in my life, that has made me of not what I am. At about 7 am today morning after a rapid fire session of question, I
think I got an answer.
I do not know whether it is the right answer to the question or the answer I wanted it to be, still there was a kind of relief in my mind which I felt was new in recent times. So what was that made me happy today?
"I was trying hard to like what I got rather than trying hard to get what I liked."
My friend started enjoying what he was doing today rather than what he was doing earlier or he has found what he thought he was looking for all along his life. That is what I have been missing recently, I have stopped enjoying what I am doing and started seeing the clock for the last period to end. Of course there might be more than one solution for it.
1] I need to try hard and like what I got
2] I should try harder to get what I like.
Thought I have the choices before me, I haven't mad my choice yet. If you could see the choices carefully you should now have noticed what might be the likely answer I will be choosing.
